Expression of Sorrow

Water Color Sorrow

That last week or so I’ve been so tired and just can’t get it together.  Every little bit I did around the house or for entertainment was an enormous effort.  I’ve found that when I get that tired, I get depressed.   Perhaps it’s the other way around, I think it’s a whole thyroid thing…but delving into my medical issues isn’t the point of this blog.   The point is I was feeling down and decided to use art as a way to lift my spirit.  I sat on the floor with my water colors.  I had no idea what I was going to create.  I wanted to surrender to the process and see what happened. 

I know it looks as if it’s a child’s water color and it very well could be but it was a lot of fun to be messy and see what would happen.  Through it I made some discoveries about the different effects I can use for future paintings.  I especially loved the diffused effect of the red on the left-hand side.  You really can’t see that effect there but it was really beautiful.  I could have happily left this painting but I wanted to continue beyond my fear of ruining it if I kept going.  

Face for Water Color

So, I decided to try adding a face.   I don’t have a lot of experience with portraits and I was afraid I wouldn’t be able to get the expression right.    But I sat one night while watching television with my husband and painted the face.   It was incredibly satisfying to see the transformation from graphite pencil to full color.   

The next step was adding the face to the picture.  This was so easy.  What wasn’t easy was adding the hair.  If I ever do it again, I will definitely include the hair in the original picture.  Oh!  Oh!  Am I setting up boundaries for myself for future painting.  Let me take that back.  That came out of fear that I wouldn’t be able to do it successfully in the future.   Let me state instead, I pledge to leave myself open to explore my art in a way that it needs to be explored without fear of success or failure. 


I finished the face and moved on to adding texture to the background and then put her hair down with her on top.  I decided I wanted her to be the focus but I wanted to express the overwhelming sadness that was felt:   jumbled mess that couldn’t be sorted through. 

It evokes the feeling of sadness for me but it helped me work through the sadness that I was feeling (now I’m just tired, lol) and in the process make something that I am really proud to share with you.


2 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. jacquee renfro
    Oct 15, 2010 @ 17:03:38

    Beautiful. I really love it.


  2. Randee
    Oct 26, 2010 @ 07:38:51

    You captured the sorrow in her eyes… I’m sure the way someone is feeling in their health; sorrow, depression, lethargy or energy can be contributors to great art.


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